the holiest...

-dedicated to Garland Prejean, a father of inspiration-

I’m trying so hard to be perfect –
I’m seeking that cosmic prayer experience…hoping for the defining moment
I’m trying so hard to be holy –
I’m putting up a front…showing only that which is good and pleasing and perfect.
And in my confusion and misunderstanding, my turmoil and hurt,
You call out…

Child, my child.
Beloved of my heart.
Seek to show the world what I see…
-the glorious mess that you truly are –
-the glorious mess that I made –
-the glorious mess that I died for-
-the glorious mess that I love-

I am holy – am a saint –
When I fall face down and admit that I am most certainly not…
When I am humbled in His most sacred presence…
When I willingly accept Him